I STILL DO DREAMING
We do our fasting for about 18 days now, and Iedulfitri will be in about 10 days' time. I don't have any preparation for celebrating this Iedulfitri. It has been along time that I don't celebrate Iedulfitri. In the past of two or three years I have neglected this celebration, because I myself have been in emosional trouble, heavy trouble. And I have been here, in Candi, since the month of September 2012, so nearly one year. I feel better now, I can enjoy my being in this place. And I have made up my mind not to ramble anymore. Lately, I feel rather blue. When I was still in Pontianak, I was feeling bad, I felt unacceppted (only my feeling), and now I have the feeling of unattended, but I myself contradict this feeling, as long as they don't react, I may not suspect bad to them, my staying here is on my own choice, so I will do everything I could, just for helping the landlady to alleviate the house work. It's only a small thing I can do, for reciprocating this fa