Rosa Kelana

In the month of November 2011, I got a lot of surprises, I received some admirers. They noted from my profile which I was thinking it was on the program "Are You Interested". They say I have a nice picture and profile, therefore they want to get acquainted with me. I have been slightly misunderstood at first, I thought they wanted only to make friends. Later, I realized, it was a program of online dating; it is ridiculous, isn't it? A woman of my age wants to get match online basis. Some guys came to greet me, they are around 7 persons, come as widower or single parent, or single, they want to have close relationship,I am really unprepared for this game. Yes, it is very very ridiculous, they are middle ages, in their late fortieth. I really could not accept it. There is one good guy, who boldly tries to understand me, he knows that I am a very head strong, I am much older than him, but he wants to know me more. As my sincere appreciation to my best friend, Mr. Alesandra...

This is day 2, I have received no message from my loved one, I feel withered, my heart becomes gloom; is it a love? I may get angry, because I only want to know his well-being. It turns out that I dare not be angry to him, he is innocent, I have never asked him anything, so he doesn't have to take any permission whatsoever for anything he wants to do. He is free to do anything, I may not cling him, I may not control him. For in fact, I am also not prepared to be his. I have just taken his hand to walk along with me hand-in-hand. So he may go away. I only will give him a portion of my hearty gratitude. This morning, I felt I was attacked by my own heart. My own heart has given me a test, will I be carried away with such situation, or can I realize that the important thing is my health, my thorough health. It is a must, because tomorrow I still do not know what will happen to my life. Dreams are always there; but dreams are just dreams, I think. I have tried to change myself, but...

This morning, I walked under the rain, along the street I was pondering about myself my present condition as well my future wish. My religious discipline is not too good, I am not working, and hence no money at all, so no house for old days of mine. I have tried for changes in me, but seems I couldn't change my appearance, There are a lot changes in me, I am healthy, have a lot of love, and happiness. Thank God. on this kind condition, I will be able to walk on with happy and love. In deep of my heart, I really don't want a son-to-be, I only want a robust elderly, The honorable Mahatma, this man should be able to grab me, pull me out from where I be, and to take me away with him. I will be patient to wait until it can be realized. For now, I still need to get in touch with a son-to-be, it is not my intention to tightly hold him, I only need him as the power of my gripping my handle, if he has already find his loved, he may go away, he may go away, I hope, he goes with happy ...