ROSES ARE RED

This morning, I walked under the rain, along the street I was pondering about myself my present condition as well my future wish. My religious discipline is not too good, I am not working, and hence no money at all, so no house for old days of mine. I have tried for changes in me, but seems I couldn't change my appearance, There are a lot changes in me, I am healthy, have a lot of love, and happiness. Thank God. on this kind condition, I will be able to walk on with happy and love.

In deep of my heart, I really don't want a son-to-be, I only want a robust elderly, The honorable Mahatma, this man should be able to grab me, pull me out from where I be, and to take me away with him. I will be patient to wait until it can be realized. For now, I still need to get in touch with a son-to-be, it is not my intention to tightly hold him, I only need him as the power of my gripping my handle, if he has already find his loved, he may go away, he may go away, I hope, he goes with happy and joyful. If he is happy, he may go now, everything will be okay. I know what should I do and what should I be.

This morning, December 21, 2011 I walked alone, streets have been lively, traffics are also busy. I felt rather discouraged to face the days to come, I am afraid that I will not change, I can not change myself and I will be like this until the end of world. I am sorry, my faith becomes fading. Oh God, please forgive me. I am only afraid.

Dec 7, 2012 at 00.1 am.

The above note is already one year, now I am happy, because I am now can eliminate the negative thinking as above. I wish God protect me forever, God bestows me a very good life to me. I wish no mishaps happen to me, and God disposes my happiness in my days to come.



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