HEART AND HEALTH
I posted on FB updating my status that in reality, heart dictates one's life. I have said that because I realize that leading my life down-to-earth needs a lot of patience and devotion, needs work hard. I believe my heart can manage totally my life, as I always wish.
I want to be a copywriter, this seems very promising, because they offer an opportunity to be a retirement to have a side job, for people who is 18 or 80, I have already had the basic tools for this.
But once again, they say it is from +XL AXIATA Amulago... what is it? Now, who is playing a prank on me? I will disregard it, because I don't have any money to be given away.Yes, I do want money, I need it, but how can it come into my account? I have no job, so there is no pay for me also.
Back to a copywriter. I hope I can find the way to be a copywriter, and I hope also I can get money and then lead a life as normal as possible. Dini is very best niece I have, she has transferred me money for my daily requirements, I pray that she is doing this on regular basis, every month, this is really be of help to me.
The prize of IDR 100 million from +XL AXIATA had truly driven me out of mind. Last night I failed to do night prayers, I felt very sleepy, I am afraid, God may test me again and again, how I can be sensible enough to face this kind enticement. This morning I vowed not to be a dreamer anymore, especially for wish or hope for the dreamed life in the near future, I don't want to have bad experiences anymore, I am afraid that it would be a problem again for me. I love to have this now kind of life, I will do it devotedly. I will lead the today life like now, I will pray for the family well being, and pray for the children can become nice children and all love me sincerely.
This for third time, I lost my writing just now. This night, April 22, 2013, I have waked up since midnight. As usual, I can't sleep in the time like this, so I make up my mind for staying up until morning and even until noon. I want to contemplate. I have a heart that very fragile, that so easy to be gloomy, yes, I confess that I am afraid of being destitute, and being sick in the old days, elderly sickness. Alhamdullillah, my health presently is excellent, I can get along (with all my sicknesses) well, meaning there is no severe sickness that make me expending money for physician or for hospital, I hope, that it would not happen on me. I am happy, because I can still use all my senses and also my brain well, my memory is still intact, I will try to benefit the kindness of this family, Nurul prepares to give money for their daily grocery, so I just prepare food for them every morning. As for my own requirements, I need to buy pulse for my mobile and my laptop to the amount of Rp. 250 ribu and Dini had supplied Rp. 500 thousand since March 2013, it seems that she is giving me regularly every month. My gratitude for my beloved Dini, I hope she always be nice to me like that.
Now, I have been powerless, but I will always pray, especially for my landlord here, that they will also be bestowed by God with prosperity and happiness, like any other person that extended his or her hands to me, he or she will also be prosperous. I will devote to it.
So, now, I may not be worried again, we will face whatever comes up at any moment, for the best and for the worse. When I can correctly savor this life to the full, I hope, I will have a very good standing in this world, that is that I will walk safely in the path of heaven. Amin.
April 24, 2013 (Rabu Pon)
Mourning News. My beloved brother-in-law, Mas Ginardjo has passed away. Now from the family of Bintoro and Ginardjo has gone. The elderly of Adam Wirjoatmodjo is only me, but I had decided to be part from them. Vaya con Dios, my beloved brother and rest in peace.
Midnight of April 25, 2013
My friend, I met a happening that struck my feeling. Asiyah has been different from a year ago, now asiyah has become a cripple. I know, my friend, we can't blame anyone else, we can't avoid ourselves of having such feeling, feeling that can ruin ourselves. You are smiling, my friend? Do you think I will not be able to bear such disappointment? You are right, my dear, you haven't any place to go now, We must endure this as a risk you have to face. Staying with this family means you have confined yourself in a small circle, you will not hurt yoursef anymore. You don't have any place to go now, you must stand being like this. Let us pray and pray, pray for my life. I want a brand, a real brand in this life. Amin.
Today is the last day of the month of April, at 7:26 pm right now, I have been feeling sleepy. What shall I do, then?
Midnight of May 3, 2013
I feel rather disappointed, I am disagree with the landlord. Since it is my choice, I could not do anything, I must bear everything with myself,. I don't have a place to go anymore, I believe, there is no one to welcome an elderly like me anymore. Only this place, and this family, who is now receiving me and make me feel better and comfortable. The reality is that it will impossible for me to make a living for myself, You must endure the situation like this, you must gratify, Yes darling, you may cry whenever you need it, we will face everything together. We hope, God bless us with good health, mentally and physically healthy. I want to promenade in the path of eden, in the garden of beautiful and colorful flowers, and uphold my personal wishes. We are building a beautiful and sweet life. We are grateful to have present standing.
I was off for 2 days, I felt very lazy, because I didn't know what to do. But I hope, beginning Monday, May 6, 2013 I will do as usual. I was only afraid that I gained my weight again, I want to be thinner. Thinner makes me healthy.
Today is Sunday, May 12, 2013. I have the impression that I will face the same thing, contrary to my own wishes to be. I will say again that money will not mean anything, it is when there is still money in possession, when the money in possession can cope with basic life requirement, just to self feed. But now, I wanted to cry, cry loudly, because you can't give money, your nephews will be avoiding you. And I will received rejection, then. In fact, I am not feeling good, I just feel that there will be a rejection from the house-lady, she is a good woman, like any other woman, she will feel bad to face a person like me. Yes, I will not blame any one in this respect, I must only make myself in better standing. Now, I still want to cry, I may cry, I love myself.
Tuesday, 14th May 2013
Bapak, ibu, here is your daughter, Asiyah, she is searching for help. As the only daughter of you, she wants to be the dearest, she knows that she can't be an apple of your eyes, but she is now in the brim of vanishing. She knows she has disappointed you, but by now, she will feel her heart with loving you. Bapak, I want to be hugged by both of you, so my heart will calm down, and awaiting the help extended by your beloved grandson, I love you Bapak, I need you so much now. I repeat this phrase.
Bapak, Ibu, may I become your lovely daughter, I miss you so much.
Bapak, Ibu, your daughter is crying now, afraid of living alone like this forever. She is very afraid of being lonely in the old days. Tomorrow, May 20, 2013 will be one year of my accident that made me hospitalized at Mitra Keluarga. Depok, the first class hospital that had made her nieces to spend a lot of money (totally around 56 million). I wished I could change my life style by now. Bapak, Ibu, please inspire your daughter to be good person, living in a very good condition.
One year I have lived spoiled, I haven't done anything, especially to feed myself. In this month of May, Bapak, Ibu, your daughter is in need of your help, your love and compassions, give her one more chance, just to keep her physic healthy and healthy.
Your daughter will not go from here now, she only wants to serve this famille, and gets protections from them.
This is my night I want to savor this life to the full, I expect I live happily in the end of my time.the Amin.
A week ago, Sara congratulated me because I had been released from negative streams that surrounded me. She said would be very happy. Yesterday was only a bad dream memory, she was very sure that I would get some aount of money and it was correct, unexpectedly I received some amount of money from the children of Mas Getuk and mbak Wiek, I am very gratefull in this respect.
Now, my dear Sister, I want you to guide me, whether I should keep my promise to Sara, that I would remit some amunt of money to her, because the money I have now is not too much. I want to keep my promise, but I don't want to have abundant money resulting from lottery or game, I don't want this. But I want to keep my promise for the last time, I will send aome amount to her, and after that I would unsubscribed. Please guide me, sis.
June 21, 2013
This morning I went to ATM to cheque my account on ATM. Luckily I lost nothing, XL-Axiata prize of IDR 49 million was just a prank. Thank God, there would not be any danger in my further journey, I hope something more beautiful bestowed to me.
I know that I am so disappointed finding that the enticement of getting huge amount of money is a spam, a prank. I need money of course, but not that so easy, I am afraid, money will make myself in danger. Where now I really want to have safe and nice adventure in my life. I may not uncover anything, it is a shame on me to have such a fool dream.
You have to be more careful, I love living here, this landlady is so humble, thank you very much.
I want to be a copywriter, this seems very promising, because they offer an opportunity to be a retirement to have a side job, for people who is 18 or 80, I have already had the basic tools for this.
But once again, they say it is from +XL AXIATA Amulago... what is it? Now, who is playing a prank on me? I will disregard it, because I don't have any money to be given away.Yes, I do want money, I need it, but how can it come into my account? I have no job, so there is no pay for me also.
Back to a copywriter. I hope I can find the way to be a copywriter, and I hope also I can get money and then lead a life as normal as possible. Dini is very best niece I have, she has transferred me money for my daily requirements, I pray that she is doing this on regular basis, every month, this is really be of help to me.
The prize of IDR 100 million from +XL AXIATA had truly driven me out of mind. Last night I failed to do night prayers, I felt very sleepy, I am afraid, God may test me again and again, how I can be sensible enough to face this kind enticement. This morning I vowed not to be a dreamer anymore, especially for wish or hope for the dreamed life in the near future, I don't want to have bad experiences anymore, I am afraid that it would be a problem again for me. I love to have this now kind of life, I will do it devotedly. I will lead the today life like now, I will pray for the family well being, and pray for the children can become nice children and all love me sincerely.
This for third time, I lost my writing just now. This night, April 22, 2013, I have waked up since midnight. As usual, I can't sleep in the time like this, so I make up my mind for staying up until morning and even until noon. I want to contemplate. I have a heart that very fragile, that so easy to be gloomy, yes, I confess that I am afraid of being destitute, and being sick in the old days, elderly sickness. Alhamdullillah, my health presently is excellent, I can get along (with all my sicknesses) well, meaning there is no severe sickness that make me expending money for physician or for hospital, I hope, that it would not happen on me. I am happy, because I can still use all my senses and also my brain well, my memory is still intact, I will try to benefit the kindness of this family, Nurul prepares to give money for their daily grocery, so I just prepare food for them every morning. As for my own requirements, I need to buy pulse for my mobile and my laptop to the amount of Rp. 250 ribu and Dini had supplied Rp. 500 thousand since March 2013, it seems that she is giving me regularly every month. My gratitude for my beloved Dini, I hope she always be nice to me like that.
Now, I have been powerless, but I will always pray, especially for my landlord here, that they will also be bestowed by God with prosperity and happiness, like any other person that extended his or her hands to me, he or she will also be prosperous. I will devote to it.
So, now, I may not be worried again, we will face whatever comes up at any moment, for the best and for the worse. When I can correctly savor this life to the full, I hope, I will have a very good standing in this world, that is that I will walk safely in the path of heaven. Amin.
April 24, 2013 (Rabu Pon)
Mourning News. My beloved brother-in-law, Mas Ginardjo has passed away. Now from the family of Bintoro and Ginardjo has gone. The elderly of Adam Wirjoatmodjo is only me, but I had decided to be part from them. Vaya con Dios, my beloved brother and rest in peace.
Midnight of April 25, 2013
My friend, I met a happening that struck my feeling. Asiyah has been different from a year ago, now asiyah has become a cripple. I know, my friend, we can't blame anyone else, we can't avoid ourselves of having such feeling, feeling that can ruin ourselves. You are smiling, my friend? Do you think I will not be able to bear such disappointment? You are right, my dear, you haven't any place to go now, We must endure this as a risk you have to face. Staying with this family means you have confined yourself in a small circle, you will not hurt yoursef anymore. You don't have any place to go now, you must stand being like this. Let us pray and pray, pray for my life. I want a brand, a real brand in this life. Amin.
Today is the last day of the month of April, at 7:26 pm right now, I have been feeling sleepy. What shall I do, then?
Midnight of May 3, 2013
I feel rather disappointed, I am disagree with the landlord. Since it is my choice, I could not do anything, I must bear everything with myself,. I don't have a place to go anymore, I believe, there is no one to welcome an elderly like me anymore. Only this place, and this family, who is now receiving me and make me feel better and comfortable. The reality is that it will impossible for me to make a living for myself, You must endure the situation like this, you must gratify, Yes darling, you may cry whenever you need it, we will face everything together. We hope, God bless us with good health, mentally and physically healthy. I want to promenade in the path of eden, in the garden of beautiful and colorful flowers, and uphold my personal wishes. We are building a beautiful and sweet life. We are grateful to have present standing.
I was off for 2 days, I felt very lazy, because I didn't know what to do. But I hope, beginning Monday, May 6, 2013 I will do as usual. I was only afraid that I gained my weight again, I want to be thinner. Thinner makes me healthy.
Today is Sunday, May 12, 2013. I have the impression that I will face the same thing, contrary to my own wishes to be. I will say again that money will not mean anything, it is when there is still money in possession, when the money in possession can cope with basic life requirement, just to self feed. But now, I wanted to cry, cry loudly, because you can't give money, your nephews will be avoiding you. And I will received rejection, then. In fact, I am not feeling good, I just feel that there will be a rejection from the house-lady, she is a good woman, like any other woman, she will feel bad to face a person like me. Yes, I will not blame any one in this respect, I must only make myself in better standing. Now, I still want to cry, I may cry, I love myself.
Tuesday, 14th May 2013
Bapak, ibu, here is your daughter, Asiyah, she is searching for help. As the only daughter of you, she wants to be the dearest, she knows that she can't be an apple of your eyes, but she is now in the brim of vanishing. She knows she has disappointed you, but by now, she will feel her heart with loving you. Bapak, I want to be hugged by both of you, so my heart will calm down, and awaiting the help extended by your beloved grandson, I love you Bapak, I need you so much now. I repeat this phrase.
Bapak, Ibu, may I become your lovely daughter, I miss you so much.
Bapak, Ibu, your daughter is crying now, afraid of living alone like this forever. She is very afraid of being lonely in the old days. Tomorrow, May 20, 2013 will be one year of my accident that made me hospitalized at Mitra Keluarga. Depok, the first class hospital that had made her nieces to spend a lot of money (totally around 56 million). I wished I could change my life style by now. Bapak, Ibu, please inspire your daughter to be good person, living in a very good condition.
One year I have lived spoiled, I haven't done anything, especially to feed myself. In this month of May, Bapak, Ibu, your daughter is in need of your help, your love and compassions, give her one more chance, just to keep her physic healthy and healthy.
Your daughter will not go from here now, she only wants to serve this famille, and gets protections from them.
This is my night I want to savor this life to the full, I expect I live happily in the end of my time.the Amin.
A week ago, Sara congratulated me because I had been released from negative streams that surrounded me. She said would be very happy. Yesterday was only a bad dream memory, she was very sure that I would get some aount of money and it was correct, unexpectedly I received some amount of money from the children of Mas Getuk and mbak Wiek, I am very gratefull in this respect.
Now, my dear Sister, I want you to guide me, whether I should keep my promise to Sara, that I would remit some amunt of money to her, because the money I have now is not too much. I want to keep my promise, but I don't want to have abundant money resulting from lottery or game, I don't want this. But I want to keep my promise for the last time, I will send aome amount to her, and after that I would unsubscribed. Please guide me, sis.
June 21, 2013
This morning I went to ATM to cheque my account on ATM. Luckily I lost nothing, XL-Axiata prize of IDR 49 million was just a prank. Thank God, there would not be any danger in my further journey, I hope something more beautiful bestowed to me.
I know that I am so disappointed finding that the enticement of getting huge amount of money is a spam, a prank. I need money of course, but not that so easy, I am afraid, money will make myself in danger. Where now I really want to have safe and nice adventure in my life. I may not uncover anything, it is a shame on me to have such a fool dream.
You have to be more careful, I love living here, this landlady is so humble, thank you very much.
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